Not an Argument Against Trying

Can you find comfort in knowing that not everything is permanent?

Do you find comfort in knowing that if the circumstances of today aren’t working, they can be changed or removed completely? It will be gone. You are not stuck, ever.

And if you want, new things, which can be synonymous with exciting things, lie just beyond your vision. Because this vision, right now, is temporary if you wish. And even if you don’t wish, things will change. And you might fight it, and you might hate it.

But the fluidity of life won’t stop because you’re scared. Today can crumble, or it will stand higher, or it will be forgotten. And either way, no matter what, you’ll survive the change. You have no choice! And in that survival, you will find a new way, and it will be right. Feeling right and being right are two different things, but eventually it too may feel right.

I think that at one time thinking of the fragility of everything I’m tied to would make me scared and sad. No one wants their comforts and joys to change or leave or fade away. But, I like knowing that if something is going to leave, if I am going to be in pain, if sadness or frustration or struggle is headed toward me, it is more fate than my doing, and it will not last. It can’t last forever. And in its place, good will be born.



This is what I have!

I have always said I have a lazy eye, but that my brain doesn’t recognize the images that come from it. When I close my right eye (my good eye), it’s hard to read or see out of my left eye.  It’s as if the image is clouded with blackness… the blackness my brain is receiving from the closed eye. No matter what, my brain only wants to use my right eye. If I close my right eye,  I don’t have the same depth perception, and can hardly feel safe driving that way. With my left eye closed, nothing changes. I literally don’t see any differently.
When I read using my left eye only, it’s difficult to comprehend what the words even mean. It’s so hard to read them.

So, I know what it is at least now.

It’s getting worse. I think I’ll have a permanently lazy eye eventually.

I don’t know, maybe Lasik helps.

This is all very sad.




No, no, way worse actually. I’m very likely to eventually go blind in my left eye.