Im posting a lot but it’s because I went through all my old journals and I miss actually writing.
But anyway, I’m really nervous about tomorrow. Aah. I dont know what to think, if we’ll actually hang out.. if I’ll actually spend the night. If anything.
Oh man. Really I dont know if I’d be disappointed if it didnt happen or relieved.
I can’t even pray about it.
So Shannon tonight told me he loved me. Not in love, ‘but I love you. Im just being honest. youre my girl and I love you.’
Funny how everytime I get fed up he comes around. I mean around as in is present again. I still dont know how I feel. Its all in the air at this time. And I don’t hate it.