I take back my last entry.
I haven’t published a real post in a while. So, Easter break just passed and I spent it in Florida visiting my family. At first I didn’t want to go, I wanted to go back to Jersey with my friends. But the trip ended up being very beneficial. Being around my family and just plain getting out of Tennessee helped me put things back in perspective, recenter myself and it helped me to figure out what I really want. Also, a recent occurence that I thought was pretty horrible has turned out to be a blessing in disguise, because amidst the pain and confusion it caused, it also helped me to see the truth- the truth being I was holding on to something that really I was ready to let go of. And so, finally, I have. And things have been so much better since then. I’ve finally emerged from the darkest period in my life. I’m resurfacing as a much stronger individual, as someone who knows themselves more. Never again will I let myself get like that, this is my pledge and my prayer.
Yesterday was 420, so we celebrated around midnight (to the point where I can hardly remember what happened), and then celebrated again last night. Except finally we had some liquor. I put myself out there and got what I was scheming for. But he soon skeeved me out, so I left him downstairs saying, “Ill be right back,” grabbed Shari and we bounced. Straight to McDonalds where Thomas was again (“No change this time?”) he was the guy we had two days ago, when 6 of us packed into Sharis car and paid him 7 dollars, 5 of it in change. Anyway her card didnt work there, so we went to Wal-Mart and spent 20 bucks on junk.
Yesterday, Shari locked her keys in her car, or so we thought. Anyway, 3 hours later, Corey and Jared got the door open.
Tonight is camping, finally. Tomorrow a day on the lake. Then, next Sunday, at 9 am, I’m leaving. Heading back to NJ for a year. Talk about mixed feelings: bitter sweet.
However, me and Shari’s 2006 spring semester video is coming along quite nicely. When it’s done I’ll post a link to it.
I like the life I’ve made for myself here. And I love them all.