I torture myself. I know it.

And also, I’m searching for something in alllll the wrong places. Cliché! But true.

Cigerettes are to some people a big red flag that screams, “Nothing is okay.” I’ve noticed this.

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  1. Warning: this note is for Chebabe only. It is here journal and I have no other way to send her a message, but if you read this and don’t agree – I am telling you here and now that it is intended for her only. So don’t bother responding to me.
    Hey Chebabe. Just wanted a “non-connected” way to say “I’m sorry” about how out of control that whole debate thing got on your other journal entry. I know you don’t know me. I think you commented on one of my friend’s journals and I followed the link from there, but I don’t remember whose it was. I am always looking for other Christians out there to “meet” and encourage. Maybe it was Matt’s journal. Anyway, I just found it hard not to respond to a lot of the biting comments that were being sent my way, but I am done now. There is no more to say that will do any good. And to tell you the truth, my heart is grieved at all the responses that came through. All simply started by one Christian trying to say a few words of encouragement to another Christian. I guess it just makes me realize how lost our world is and how much so many people need to know Jesus. And how much more I need to live diligently for him.
    Anyway, oddly through this whole thing – it has made me feel a connection to you – if only becuase we have had to in this small way stand together and defend our faith against people who want nothing to do with it.
    I apologize if I in any way offended you by being so active in this debate in what is supposed to be your jounal. I certainly didn’t intend for things to play out as they did.
    Take care. And I wish we had snow over here right now like you show in your pictures.

    • Dont be sorry at all. If anything I am very relieved you wrote all the things you did, because if you hadn’t I would have responded to them, and Idk what I would have said. Yeah, I’m very happy you came across my journal.. probably from matt wood.. and it’s awesome to have another christian live journal friend. You can add me to your friends list if you want. Sorry if I came across mad in that other post where I said I didnt know any of you, I wasnt mad at you at all, I just felt over whelmed and I hated the fact that that one person called us ‘fanatics’. But if they keep posting, I think I will keep replying if I felt led, and I encourage you to reply if you want to as well. I feel sad that they are so blind and have such hard hearts towards the whole topic, but it’s absolutely fine to me that they decided to vent in my journal. Atleast they got some postive, christian responces.
      Anyway, have a good day!

      • Funny, but I bet they don’t think the responses were positive. Oh well. Thanks. I think it was Matt Wood because I was just looking through his journal again and you had responded to him on another post. He’s a good guy. I go to church with him.
        It was very overwhelming to me, as well, just so see how things that you or I brought up weren’t even responded to. It was almost like the responses were more a release of pent up frustration or anger against Christians in general and Christian stereotypes – but not a true response to anything we said. So how do you respond back to someone who is not really trying to read what you are trying to say – but instead is skimming already determined to disagree and then responding back about without addressing what you say. Again – oh well.
        Feel free to add me to your friends list, as well, if you like. I range from talking about my nieces and nephews and nothing in general, to yes the oh so dreaded religious topics. Ha Ha.
        I hope we can hang in there together, as fellow Christians, now and in the future. My journal has become a source of encouragement to me as it has given me a place to just put down my thoughts and also receive encouragement from friends.
        Take care.
        Matthew 10
        22All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved.

  2. Warning: this note is for Chebabe only. It is here journal and I have no other way to send her a message, but if you read this and don’t agree – I am telling you here and now that it is intended for her only. So don’t bother responding to me.
    Hey Chebabe. Just wanted a “non-connected” way to say “I’m sorry” about how out of control that whole debate thing got on your other journal entry. I know you don’t know me. I think you commented on one of my friend’s journals and I followed the link from there, but I don’t remember whose it was. I am always looking for other Christians out there to “meet” and encourage. Maybe it was Matt’s journal. Anyway, I just found it hard not to respond to a lot of the biting comments that were being sent my way, but I am done now. There is no more to say that will do any good. And to tell you the truth, my heart is grieved at all the responses that came through. All simply started by one Christian trying to say a few words of encouragement to another Christian. I guess it just makes me realize how lost our world is and how much so many people need to know Jesus. And how much more I need to live diligently for him.
    Anyway, oddly through this whole thing – it has made me feel a connection to you – if only becuase we have had to in this small way stand together and defend our faith against people who want nothing to do with it.
    I apologize if I in any way offended you by being so active in this debate in what is supposed to be your jounal. I certainly didn’t intend for things to play out as they did.
    Take care. And I wish we had snow over here right now like you show in your pictures.

    • Dont be sorry at all. If anything I am very relieved you wrote all the things you did, because if you hadn’t I would have responded to them, and Idk what I would have said. Yeah, I’m very happy you came across my journal.. probably from matt wood.. and it’s awesome to have another christian live journal friend. You can add me to your friends list if you want. Sorry if I came across mad in that other post where I said I didnt know any of you, I wasnt mad at you at all, I just felt over whelmed and I hated the fact that that one person called us ‘fanatics’. But if they keep posting, I think I will keep replying if I felt led, and I encourage you to reply if you want to as well. I feel sad that they are so blind and have such hard hearts towards the whole topic, but it’s absolutely fine to me that they decided to vent in my journal. Atleast they got some postive, christian responces.
      Anyway, have a good day!

      • Funny, but I bet they don’t think the responses were positive. Oh well. Thanks. I think it was Matt Wood because I was just looking through his journal again and you had responded to him on another post. He’s a good guy. I go to church with him.
        It was very overwhelming to me, as well, just so see how things that you or I brought up weren’t even responded to. It was almost like the responses were more a release of pent up frustration or anger against Christians in general and Christian stereotypes – but not a true response to anything we said. So how do you respond back to someone who is not really trying to read what you are trying to say – but instead is skimming already determined to disagree and then responding back about without addressing what you say. Again – oh well.
        Feel free to add me to your friends list, as well, if you like. I range from talking about my nieces and nephews and nothing in general, to yes the oh so dreaded religious topics. Ha Ha.
        I hope we can hang in there together, as fellow Christians, now and in the future. My journal has become a source of encouragement to me as it has given me a place to just put down my thoughts and also receive encouragement from friends.
        Take care.
        Matthew 10
        22All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved.

  3. Ooooo, I’m being talked about 😉 Hi Che! Just wondering if that picture is for real??? You can’t drive if it rains more than an inch in 8 hours?!?!? That’d be craziness. Hope church went well today! See you around!
    God bless,
    Matthew

  4. Ooooo, I’m being talked about 😉 Hi Che! Just wondering if that picture is for real??? You can’t drive if it rains more than an inch in 8 hours?!?!? That’d be craziness. Hope church went well today! See you around!
    God bless,
    Matthew

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